Clever Substitutes For Truth: Part IV (Final)

Imagine, if you will, being in a darkened room and sitting there alone for all eternity, a presence in the midst of nothingness.  Grasp all you want, there is nobody and nothing there. Now imagine that nobody else is there because you are the only one that has ever existed. All the people that you believe exist, are really nothing more than figments of your imagination.  You will soon understand that there is a certain horror about being God, and an eternal lonliness that knows no bounds.  This is not an emotional lonliness, it is an absolute lonliness that is real beyond all belief. This would be the end result if man in his individuality believed he were God. However, God is not man and therefore "heaven" is far more profound than darkness and eternal lonliness. On his own, man can do nothing.  A proper understanding of deification is in order, particularly because the idea is held in such contempt that people have disregarded it altogether even though it is the end result of salvation no matter how much Christians deny it or hate the thought of being glorified. 

In order to "create" God goes into himself, into his own eternity and seeming "emptiness" and creates a world whose size is indefinite, a world filled with diversity of creation, apparent plurality, and beauty that is utterly incomprehensible in its totality. God's will is not really a will at all as much as it is a spontaneity that makes up that which he is (and is not). We do good to ask ourselves, with what has God created all these things?  The simple answer to that question is "nothingness". Everything that we see and experience on any given day is composed of nothingness from the infinitely small to the infinitely great, and what's more is that God has let us all in on the big joke even though many have refused to believe that God has a sense of humor.  Many of us have taken things far too seriously without first attempting to understand why things are the way that they are.  Let me explain.

Did God at some point just decide, "Hey, I'm going to create a world for myself!" and then miraculously "all of a sudden" (from everlasting time prior to the beginning of the universe) bring that universe forth from his nothingness and his eternity? Why didn't he decide to create it earlier? Or later?  Or perhaps we believe that time only began with the universe?  The evolutionists have the monopoly on how things came to be in this fallen world of ours.  The premise of evolution is that complex life developed from simple forms of life. In other words, things started from simple atoms and molecules and gradually moved in complexity to form simple cellular life, plant life, and finally animal life.  Sure, it seems to make sense except for the fact that when scientists actually began to investigate it further, the entire theory basically fell apart.  When men began to develop stronger microscopes, it became apparent that even something as simple as a single-cell organism was composed of tiny molecular machines (motor proteins) that were mind-bogglingly complex.  In other words, from the very beginning, things were already complex, there was no development, there was an instantanous creation.  The premise of the evolutionists utterly failed when stacked against the truth. And even today their nonsense is taught in schools.

But it doesn't just stop there either.  When men began to spread across the earth and devise ideas on the nature of the earth, they moved from an elementary understanding of the earth as being flat with a dome of water covering it, to it being a sphere, to it NOT being the center of the universe.  We can thank geometry and telescopes for that, both creations of white men who are an emanation of God, as it were.  But these are merely scientific finds and even they are limited in their explanation of what life truly is.  Ultimately they succeed at limiting the ultimate, which can only be uncovered by a thorough examination of self and God.  You see, the problem is that if scientists had an eternal shelf-life, they'd come no closer to solving the grand puzzle of human existence.  They have convinced themselves that there is nothing transcendent, and they have really just deceived themselves.  The problem is that every time telescopes see further, or microscopes smaller, there is nothing but confusion.  Entire volumes of scientific findings have to be rewritten because new scientific truths come to life.  Why is that?

The problem is that even though physical matter appears real to us, it is made up of atoms and molecules that are essentially empty space or (you guessed it) "nothingness"-the same stuff God used to create the known universe because there was nothing but nothing available to him.  The further into space we look, the further into matter we look, we are shocked utterly to find that everything we see and perceived is made up of empty space.  We used to beleive that Atoms were the smallest particles in existence, only to later find the sub-atomic particle.  In a word, the more we look into things, the more we are forced to create new ideas to describe the physical universe which refuses to appear anywhere because when we look closer, it simply disappears.  That is true of everything in creation.   However, no matter how hard we try, we cannot escape the strange reality that the equation of the universe is always 0 + 0 = 0.  Yes, God is so incredibly clever that it defies the imagination. Great is his majesty that he can create such diversity by simply stacking zeros on top of zeros and making it appear as 1s, 2s, and 3s.  When I first realized this, I was utterly dumbfounded by it.  He abrogated mathematics and defied the laws of physics to bring forth a nothingness that appears to be a somethingness.   

We are told by scientists today that the human mind is little more than the firing of  synapses through neurons, etc.  They tell us that thought is created by matter when it is actually the other way around.  It is strange that we have not realized that the human mind does not follow the same laws physical matter does.  Therefore, how can the mind be a product of matter?  Mind utterly transcends matter because thought cannot be weighed or measured, nor can the consciousness that emerges from the mind. For the most part, we don't even know what consciousness is.  And as odd as it may sound to some, the truth of the matter is that the universe exists merely by virtue of the thinkers thought. Matter cannot be created or destroyed the scientists tell us, yet thoughts come and go and leave no residue or weight by which we can measure them.  In a word, thoughts are the only thing in creation that have absolutely no obvious measurement or dimension. How can they be the product of matter which is weighed and measured in many diverse ways?  The scientists were wrong again.

All of creation is a thought, and not a reality that goes beyond its essence which is Zero.  Every number but Zero is hypothetical, existing only as an ephemeral idea and a clever combination of zeros that give the appearance of a "somethingness".  That is the essential nature and foundation of life and all of existence.  But there is a human dimension to all of this as well, and what I have written so far only illustrates the myth of modern science that we can explain the absurd using the absurd.  For me the human dimension in all of this is the most painful and difficult because that is where all of this really matters. I am forced to continue for the sake of truth. 

"That Daniel has become a real fuckin asshole."  "I think he has lost his mind."  "Yeah it started off pretty good, and then he got all weird."  "Too mystical for me, see ya later."  Sadly, for me I thought things were just getting interesting.  I have no intention of stopping now.

I'm only answering the question that eventually all of you will have to answer. You may indeed believe that I have lost my mind, but I can assure you, that I have more sanity than most.  So let me explain why the theme of this blog has radically changed since the beginning of this year.

Several months ago while sitting at home, having a beer after work, the facade utterly dropped before my eyes. I stood up, dropped my beer on my living room floor and was gripped by a terror that I can scarcely describe to any man.  It is a fear that has no human origin, but comes from an uncovering of the facade of human existence and the profound realization that there is nothing to life but an infinite void that is filled to the brim with a sea of illusion.  To be as descriptive as I can, this would be like waking up one day and realizing that you are the only one that exists and all of life (including those you love) is an illusion meant to protect you from the reality that you are alone in an eternal nothingness.  I thought that I was dying at that moment, and all I could ask myself is how this could be. This experience is the beginning of the breaking apart of the facade that I am speaking about.  That facade is none other than the fallen creation which is beginning to pass away for some people.  Little do we understand that judgement has already begun to happen and the future is going to get immensely strange and interesting.  But I must go back a little ways, to the age of 23 when this was shown to me for the first time. I now proceed to the final nail in my coffin.  You have been warned.

One night while reading a book in my study, I began to have a weird sensation come over me.  It was as if the book I was reading had been written by me.  I simply couldn't understand the odd familiarity I had with everything that was in my perception at that moment.  Little by little my surroundings began to reveal themselves as not "outside" of me, but rather inside of me.  It was almost as if my existence reversed itself.  Soon I had lost all communication with what I was, and found myself in a void that I first thought was outer space.  And as strange as this may sound to some, it felt entirely natural to be in this place, which I understood at that moment to be "the mind of God." As I began to enter into this strange state bits and pieces of information were beginning to reveal themselves to me.  I remembered things, details of life that I had never known before, everything that I wanted to know was made available to me in an instant.  However, I began to realize that the further I went swimming into this mind of God, the more I began to lose my identity as "Daniel".  That was the payoff, in order to move further, I had to lose a piece of myself and the further I went, the more I began to realize the unreality of my existence as this man.  Coming to the pinnacle of this experience, it felt as if I moved my hand I could move my presence to the other side of the universe.  Soon I came to the realization that I had experienced what I can only call the core of all existence, and I remembered being all things that had ever walked, lived, breathed, or slithered upon the earth yet remaining somewhat distinct from them all.  I was still aware that back in some tiny room with a desk and a bookshelf there was this kid laying flat on his face, possibly dying. 

Soon I came to a blinding presence.  By this point I believe that I experienced what has been often called the "Beatific Vision", and remember being told that I had the choice to leave or remain forever.  While I don't remember making an actual choice, I do remember "remembering" my identity as "Daniel" and being thrust back into my pathetic little life in a dingy corner of the universe in a tiny wisconsin town. I surely didn't want to leave and would have sacrificed everything to stay if I could have.  As I came to my senses, my girlfriend asleep in the other room, heard me mumbling under my breath, "That's enough, Lord, I cannot take anymore! Please stop!"  I remember feeling intense waves of  residual ecstacy at the knowledge of eternity and being a partaker in the fullness of God. The joy was so intense and powerful that I had begged God to stop. Strangely this experience shattered my entire life. I awoke and entered into years of depression and rebellion against God.  I always imagined heaven to be a perfected world and God to be a mere man.  This was far more intense, far more profound than anything I could possibly imagine. My participation in that strange world was utterly demanded. I wasn't just an observer of things, I was a part of the grandeur of it,a spark of his genius that had become condensed and solidified into a lie that made up the totality of what God is.  Because God is infinite, he must be everything and nothing. There is simply no escape from that, he must become all things, real and unreal-being and non-being.  To this day I am not entirely sure why my reaction toward it was so harsh and why I fell into the most pitiful state of sin I had ever found myself in afterwards. I suspect it was my failure at denying myself, and the knowledge that there was a heavy debt upon me due to years of selfishness and inner tribulation.

So what does this experience at 23 have to do with my fear at 33?  It has everything to do with it.  I spent ten years undergoing a catharsis that would prepare me for the visitation I knew would come again.  I saw something I wasn't supposed to see.  I had been let in on the big joke that in all actuality existence is pure joy and a part of the infinite body of God that inhabits every place.  That fear existed only because it was the final shield my false individuality had put up to protect itself from the truth of all human existence.  God stood in front of me girt with spear and shield fully prepared to put an end to the facade called "Daniel".  And over the years he whispered gently in my ear, "Are you ready yet?" and everytime I simply answered, "No. Not yet."  But years of denying myself, raising a family, and being a Christian man prepared me for what I didn't see at 23 because I wasn't willing.  I willingly faced the void and plunged myself headlong into it.  And in that place I uncovered what had been lost so long ago, the real Christian faith and the nature of the love of Christ.

The human body is made up of many stacked zeros.  The flesh is composed of atoms and molecules that reveal their emptiness upon closer examination.  No matter how much we magnify it, it will always reveal itself as empty.  The individual mind creates its false personhood and lives under the assumption that its individual personality is real.  It views its physical body and says, "this is mine."  However, the body as I mentioned is ephemeral, made up of the same emptiness as all of physical creation upon closer examination. God is looking through the eyes of every man as a scientist looks through a microscope. We are confounded because we have mistaken the microscope for the man. We suffer insofar as we are anchored to the falseness of being human. Matter, it would appear, is basically condensed or solidified spirit.  That is it.  The curse of the fall is that man no longer became a partaker of the fullness and continuity of God, but became a separated entity. There was no choice in this, it had to occur as a part of the divine plan, and just as it has occured, it must also resolve itself. This is now what is occuring in our world, we just don't see it yet. Interpreting symbolism isn't man's strong suit anymore.  When the veil of the temple was torn in half, the process of resolution and reconciliation had begun.  It is now moving toward its inevitable conclusion and fast.  The fear we have of this divine emptiness (which is really freedom and liberation not limited to a corruptible nature) comes only because we fear the death of self.  But this "self" is an impostor and always has been. We used to be able to see this as little children if we stared at ourselves too long in the mirror. We just knew that if we continued, something weird might happen.  My painful and very fearful realization was due to the clinging I had done to the ephemeral personality that is a product of the fall of man.  I fear death only because I associate all reality with "Daniel," but when "Daniel" is not my essence, but rather an after affect of what I (and everybody else) truly is, the everything and nothing of God.

God is omnipresent, omnipotent, and utterly infinite.  He is indeed everything from the individual thought, to the most horrendous occurence.  But he loses nothing of himself, because he is the never depleted fount of all things, and is the source of eternal life. Evil exists only because the facade of separation from God is a temporary reality in our world. Eventually the life of all men will be tried with fire.  They will be made painfully aware of the unreality of the individual because if God is infinite there is no place for the fallen man to exist.  New Jerusalem is coming, and it is coming fast.  Hell is reserved for all those that have believed in the facade and have not understood the infinitude of God and the implications of that infinitude.  Until men are willing to face the lonliness and terror of losing themselves, they have no chance of inheriting the kingdom.  When Christ uttered the painful words, "Eloi, Eloi Lama Sabacthani" he understood what it meant to take upon himself human nature. In that moment, he made clear the true meaning of the Christian faith and the final mystery of God. For this reason alone, he was given all authority in heaven and upon the earth and is the only name through which men might be saved.

John Chapter 17

Jesus spoke these things; and lifting up His eyes to heaven, He said, "Father, the hour has come; glorify Your Son, that the Son may glorify You, even as You gave Him authority over all flesh, that to all whom You have given Him, He may give eternal life. This is eternal life, that they may know You, the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom You have sent. I glorified You on the earth, having accomplished the work which You have given Me to do. Now, Father, glorify Me together with Yourself, with the glory which I had with You before the world was.


"I have manifested Your name to the men whom You gave Me out of the world; they were Yours and You gave them to Me, and they have kept Your word. Now they have come to know that everything You have given Me is from You; for the words which You gave Me I have given to them; and they received them and truly understood that I came forth from You, and they believed that You sent Me. I ask on their behalf; I do not ask on behalf of the world, but of those whom You have given Me; for they are Yours; and all things that are Mine are Yours, and Yours are Mine; and I have been glorified in them.


"I am no longer in the world; and yet they themselves are in the world, and I come to You. Holy Father, keep them in Your name, the name which You have given Me, that they may be one even as We are. While I was with them, I was keeping them in Your name which You have given Me; and I guarded them and not one of them perished but the son of perdition, so that the Scripture would be fulfilled.

"But now I come to You; and these things I speak in the world so that they may have My joy made full in themselves. I have given them Your word; and the world has hated them, because they are not of the world, even as I am not of the world. I do not ask You to take them out of the world, but to keep them from the evil one. They are not of the world, even as I am not of the world. Sanctify them in the truth; Your word is truth. As You sent Me into the world, I also have sent them into the world. For their sakes I sanctify Myself, that they themselves also may be sanctified in truth.


"I do not ask on behalf of these alone, but for those also who believe in Me through their word; that they may all be one; even as You, Father, are in Me and I in You, that they also may be in Us, so that the world may believe that You sent Me.


"The glory which You have given Me I have given to them, that they may be one, just as We are one; I in them and You in Me, that they may be perfected in unity, so that the world may know that You sent Me, and loved them, even as You have loved Me. Father, I desire that they also, whom You have given Me, be with Me where I am, so that they may see My glory which You have given Me, for You loved Me before the foundation of the world.


"O righteous Father, although the world has not known You, yet I have known You; and these have known that You sent Me; and I have made Your name known to them, and will make it known, so that the love with which You loved Me may be in them, and I in them."

Clever Substitutes For Truth: Part III

After posting part II of this series early this afternoon, I came to my dashboard and saw that I had lost more followers. Quite frankly, I was rather shocked. While this greatly disappoints me because the followers of this blog are so few, I have to admit that this can only mean that some have been bothered by my words. If the things I am writing have offended, perhaps one ought to investigate why they have been so offended by them.  The real problem, of course, is that I am not cursing the jews or writing about government conspiracies.  I'm not quoting the OT nearly enough and screeching on about how "Yahweh" is going to use the Israelites as his weapons of war against Edom. More importantly I have not gone off the deep end and claimed that Israel is responsible for the earthquake in Haiti. In essence, I have not fueled the illusion and the madness that has been the symptom of a spiritual disease. Please ask yourselves of what use are these things to your faith in God and your salvation?  And then understand why I cannot speak of those things any longer.  I go far deeper than many are willing to go because until we reach the final mystery of God, all the things that are not of God are going to die the death.  I am not attempting to offend anyone, but the truth has become so plainly obvious that I am shocked that more have not understood what I am trying to express in this series.   

To my followers that have departed, I'm sorry my words did not resonate with you, but I will not compromise the truth for the sake of more readers or followers.  I accept that many have nothing but scorn and contempt for me and what I am writing, but that is to be expected today.  I am blasted by those that accuse me of "claiming a monopoly on the truth" and others go on to say that I am a "coward" and others still that make a mockery out of my posts on various forums like Stormfront. Everybody is a critic.  Keep in mind that those that have shown me nothing but scorn are supposedly Christian men and women who have been lying and scheming against me in emails and comments that I don't make public. Not one of these individuals has attempted to correct what they tell me are my "errors".  How Christian indeed.  They pretend to know so much more than I do, but can offer up nothing in return to combat against the things I have written.  I have told them before to put forth their teaching, and defend it as I have my own. Yet none of them are willing to do this, they can only complain and show contempt for the things they do not understand.  I am not asking anyone to take up pacifism, quite the contrary, I am telling them that they have authority entrusted to them, and the reason for their confusion is because they do not understand the final result of God's divine plan.

My detractors can complain about me all they wish, It would appear that I am shown more kindness among the heathen than my own brothers and sisters who cannot even point out the supposed errors they accuse me of.  Is it any wonder why judgement begins with the house of God?   There are too many theologians on the internet, each one professing a monopoly on the truth as revealed by scripture, each one claiming to point out the errors of someone elses scriptural interpretation. None of it matters one bit.  All of it is personal interpretation and truth cannot be communicated through paper, nor through the internet.  How many of these men truly know Christ, and how many of them merely know the book?  Scriptural truth is cheap today because nobody has an idea what the truth is. They have no peace, and are pushed around by the waves of doubt and confusion.  Rather than looking inside, they look outside. While criticising the natural scientists who seeks answers for everything in matter, the common Christian carries out the same error believing that God's will is to be found in the outward life.  Little do they understand that what a man is outwardly is only half of the truth and half of the totality of what he or she is.  Nobody agrees on what truth is, and this proof alone tells us that something is seriously wrong with Christianity today.  From the end of the first century onward, there has been a campaign to utterly destroy her.

There is a gaping maw between what many Christians believe and what the truth is. They exist on two entirely different planets as it were.  Truth is experiential, not a simple "possiblity" that can be gleaned by the human intellect.  There is something much more pristine and incorruptible about it.  Truth is a reality and a certainty, yet so many of these biblical scholars often conceed, "Well, possibly I could be wrong."  What kind of truth is that?  Truth is the summum bonum, not the personal interpretation of scripture.  Man is powerless and without a hope because he doesn't understand the nature of truth, which is utterly transcendent over all things including the personal interpretation of scripture.  Strangely we have convinced ourselves that attaining that which is transcendent is an impossiblity for man.    On his present course, man will forever be grasping for the truth. He think he can find it in front of his eyes, when the real truth exists behind his eyes.  I suppose statements like those are what have been getting me in trouble lately.  Well, I've come this far, I don't want to disappoint those that are hoping for my speedy demise. Part IV, which will be by far the most metaphysical part of this series will probably be the nail in my coffin I would imagine. Please feel free to pull your names and kill your links to this blog for the sake of your reputation.  Your friends won't blame you one bit.

So let's be fair. Who has the truth?  Do you have an answer for that, all of you that despise these things I have written? We try to say that these differences don't matter or affect the overall state of affairs, but they do.  These factions reveal powerful divisions in the understanding we have of God. These contentions are even responsible for the death and abuse of our race.  Without a solid spiritual grounding, there is no health in the race.  Knowing we are on the edge of a cliff, can we really say that the corrupted mainline (and CI) faith has failed us? Very few men possess the truth in this modern world.  These variety of scriptural beliefs left on their own to develop into larger conflagrations would cause war and bloodshed among brothers if we only lived in different times.  The truth cannot be debated because it sears the conscience for all time.  Once it is known there is no longer any question of which scriptural interpretation is the correct one.  God reveals himself as ever present within the life of the man and everything else becomes a secondary affair.  

The Body of Christ is laying in the gutter and no man has bothered to offer a hand although many have posted articles today on reformed eschatology, the book of Ezekiel, and why the dietary laws are still in effect for honkies that wished they were jews.  Christian men today have surfed porn, shirked their responsibilities, ignored their children, and wished evil upon their enemies.  Minute by minute your time here is running out.  Will you continue to be idle while the world burns down around you?  And how much  longer will God's patience last before the door is slammed shut in the face of these pious Christians who believe the highest good of the Christian faith is to write article after article about meaningless things while their kin are out in the world immersed in the evil spirit of this age.  God save us all.  

Clever Substitutes For Truth: Part II

Luke 9:51-56:

It came to pass, when the days were near that he should be taken up, he intently set his face to go to Jerusalem, and sent messengers before his face. They went, and entered into a village of the Samaritans, so as to prepare for him. They didn't receive him, because he was traveling with his face set towards Jerusalem. When his disciples, James and John, saw this, they said, "Lord, do you want us to command fire to come down from the sky, and destroy them, just as Elijah did?" But he turned and rebuked them, "You don't know of what kind of spirit you are. For the Son of Man didn't come to destroy men's lives, but to save them."

We have a great deal of anger and upheavel in our understanding of God these days.  Most of the time such anger is not righteousness at all, but rather the anger of the individual toward those he simply hates.  It has very little to do with the love he has for God and a lot to do with personal rather than righteous anger.  Rather than seeking to reach some of these enemies of ours, we would prefer to just kill them. Jesus rebuked even his own disciples when they asked if they should, "call fire down from the sky."  While I do believe that violence is sometimes justified in many instances, I do not believe that the actions and thoughts of most men have anything to do with God.  Man will always put himself first before God, even when he thinks his anger and contempt are motivated by his love and zeal for God. In fact, many CI adherents today often quote Luke 19:27 as the "go-ahead" to slaughter those that don't follow after Christ. I listened to one man in particular claim that this was an "end-times" prophecy about how the Israelites would destroy the enemies of Christ.

Luke 19: 27

But as for these enemies of mine, who did not want me to reign over them, bring them here and slaughter them before me.

This particular verse is the part of the parable of the ten pounds, and is a dialogue between a nobleman and his servants.  Like all parables, what is on the surface is not meant in the literal sense, but has another context entirely.  As usual, many use this verse to describe a command that Christians have the authority to slaughter unruly people before the throne of God.  Clearly these men show just how lost they are when it comes to proper interpretation of scripture.  Of all the other parables in the Gospels, this is the only verse in a parable that they will interpret literally. What exactly does this reveal about these men? This is one example of how many do not grasp the Word of God because they possess the spirit of anger, rather than the Spirit of God.  They interpret scripture according to personal tastes and force the word to conform to their anger which disguises itself as a form of godliness.  There are so many of these men that cannot be trusted as teachers because they teach another gospel entirely. 

Matthew 5: 44-47

But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you my be sons of your Father who is in heaven; for he makes his sun rise on the evil and on the good and sends rain on the just and on the unjust.  For if you love those who love you, what reward have you?  Do not even the tax collectors do the same?  And if you salute only your brethren, what more are you doing than others? 

Since Christianity in our modern world has become nothing more than a moral religion even among the racially aware, how do we explain the command of Jesus to love our enemeis?  Some men have said that this refers to our personal enemies and not God's enemies.  The thought of that is so ridiculous that it is barely worthy of an answer.  A Christian brother is not a persecuter of Christianity.  A Christian brother does not curse you, steal from you, or despitefully use you.   When Christ spoke these words, Judea was under the authority of Rome, a pagan empire that practiced all things evil.  To say that this verse relates only to ones personal enemies is foolishness, it relates to all those whose hearts and minds are set against God.  We cannot forget that even the most godless of our race belong to God and serve a purpose, some for eventual salvation, and others for destruction.  These people are still our kin no matter how detestable they may be.  Therefore, the outrageous anger we have must be thoroughly examined to determine if it is truly justified, or if it is a product of our own selfishness.

When an individual first begins to feel the presence of God in their life, and I mean this literally, there is an inward change, a catharsis that seems to overhaul the individual completely.  Speaking for myself, the first time this occured in my own life, I bitterly wept because the experience of this presence was so profound and intense in its reality.  As luck would have it, my wife had witnessed her normally unmoved husband (who she had never seen cry in the ten years she knew me) reduced not only to tears but child-like sobbing. The best way I can describe this is that I wept for nothing else but the joy of being in the presence of Christ. After this occured, I remembered the words of St. Augustine in his "Confessions" where he speaks of the tears he cried the moment of his conversion when the Spirit of God had revealed itself to him:

"I cast myself down I know not how, under a certain fig-tree, giving full vent to my tears; and the floods of mine eyes gushed out an acceptable sacrifice to Thee. And, not indeed in these words, yet to this purpose, spake I much unto Thee: and Thou, O Lord, how long? how long, Lord, wilt Thou be angry for ever? Remember not our former iniquities, for I felt that I was held by them. I sent up these sorrowful words: How long, how long, "to-morrow, and tomorrow?" Why not now? why not is there this hour an end to my uncleanness? So was I speaking and weeping in the most bitter contrition of my heart, when, lo! I heard from a neighbouring house a voice, as of boy or girl, I know not, chanting, and oft repeating, "Take up and read; Take up and read. "

For the Christians of the first century, Christianity was not a religion at all-it was a way of life, not ruled by rites and doctrines, but by a dynamic faith that cleansed the Soul and made it pure. Aside from the OT, there were no Christian scriptures aside from many letters written and spread throughout the Christian communities.  Many of these letters no longer exist and were just as authoritative as the books contained in the New Testament today.  Today within the church are factions, disagreements, and doctrine wars based on the many thousands of theologies that are man-centered, and man-created. For nearly 2000 years these differences have made Christianity a faith that is defiant against the Spirit of God, a faith that has so profoundly missed the point, that it no longer represents Christ.

 We ought to ask ourselves, what kind of man is given the truth of this world?  Is it the angry CI adherent, who living alone in hermitage, has neglected Christ while thinking that eternal life is delivered merely by studying the OT and underlining verses that seem to justify ones personal longing for vengeance?  Or is it the man that has a yearning  for Christ and the Kingdom of God not for the sake of personal gain, but because the love of God in his heart urges him to work toward coming to the full-stature of Christ?  And just what does Christ himself say about the "lovers of the scriptures who have never really known God?"

John 5: 37-40

And the Father who sent me has himself testified concerning me. You have never heard his voice nor seen his form, nor does his word dwell in you, for you do not believe the one he sent. You diligently study the Scriptures because you think that by them you possess eternal life. These are the Scriptures that testify about me, yet you refuse to come to me to have life.

Christianity today is a tragedy because it never reaches the logical conclusion of the Christian faith, which is the perfection of man through the grace of God by faith.  Instead men who have not undergone the death of the old man have turned Christianity into Phariseeism where the only knowledge they have of God is in the words of scripture, which they clearly do not grasp.  Christianity is perishing because the quality of man is lacking. So many men are put off with the idea of real Christianity, which is reaching out even to our enemies, and striving for perfection.  We are to be more Christ-like, not servile wimps begging for God's forgiveness and mercy because we continually fail. We are to be of good report not only from those in the faith, but even from those outside of it. Be Ye Holy, For I am Holy.  The sole purpose of man is to be an imitator of Christ.  We have to analyze everything we do at every moment and ask ourselves if we are giving glory to God in our daily life or are we the same scoundrel we were 10 years ago.  If Christ is with you, your errors become much more clear.  If the Word is in you, your sins are revealed.  If you are an arrogant, lying piece of shit and think you have come to the full stature of Christ, you have neither Christ nor a sane mind. In a word, you are lost.

When I was 18 years old I was at a huge birthday/graduation party that took place in a public park.  By 10:00pm I was so drunk that I had become hostile, even challenging some of my enemies to a drunken brawl. Eventually, I passed out on a park bench that night.  I awoke at 3AM in the morning and remembered practically nothing that had happened. I was startled because the park was empty and barren, there were no signs of life anywhere.  I got up and tripped hard doing a face plant on the cement path and cutting up my face pretty good. Someone had tied my shoelaces together probably because I was being an idiot so they thought it would be funny.  When I finally got up everything was spinning, and I walked about a mile and a half home through the city.  It felt like hours to get home.  I was so wasted I was having a hard time remembering where I lived exactly.  In the distance I saw a porch light, it was the only one that was on that early in the morning.  My Dad had left it on for me because he knew I would be coming home late.  I managed to make it through the front door, but didn't remember much after that.  I fell asleep on our living room floor and woke up in my bedroom the next morning.  I had passed out again shortly after walking through the door and my Dad had helped me to bed, he had been waiting up for me knowing that I was very troubled at that time. 

God has left the light on for all of those that belong to him.  It is not only about studying scripture, winning in a religious debate, or proving your brother wrong.  It is about striving every moment of ones life, through the darkness of this age and the horrible ordeals that come with being human. We have invested so much time in the secondary matters that we have neglected the very essence of the faith, which is to work toward Christ and our salvation.  I recently had a talk with a very close non-Christian friend who was telling me about a person that he hated.  I looked at him and said, "Brother, have you ever had any compassion for this person?"  His response was, "why the f#*@ would I have compassion for him?" He was perplexed that I would dare ask him such a thing.  This man, an unrepentant sinner who I have been trying to reach for nearly 5 years, who I care for like a little brother, is in no worse of a position than many Christians that I know.  I struggle to understand why it is that the cornerstone of the Christian faith today is the same as the cornerstone of the ordinary life, pleasure, contentment, and vengeance. There is no inner confrontation, no inner upheaval or the working out of salvation with fear and trembling. In fact, there is little understanding of God at all.

We must move forward, the past is finished and the future, which is where New Jerusalem resides, is waiting for the wayward children of God.  The Father has left the porch light on. He waits for us to come stumbling home.  Certainly none of us will walk through that door perfect human beings or even remotely blameless. Many of us will walk through the door still having anger and rage in our hearts.  It will take physical death to reconcile some of us.  It is not easy to hate with a perfect hatred.  In fact, it is far easier to say than to do.  Just because one hates niggers and faggots doesn't make him or her righteous.  Just because you see the Jews for what they are doesn't make you a Godly man or woman.  What it does mean, however, is that you may be very much preoccupied with your enemies (and God's) rather than with your salvation and reaching truth. In every case that makes God the runner-up, and God refuses to be anything less than the sole focus of ones life.

Clever Substitutes For Truth: Part 1

God created man with the potential for failure.

Suffering came into the world through failure.


Suffering came into the world through man.


God is self-existent, omnipotent, and infinite. Man is not.


Man did not ask to be born.  He was brought out of non-being and told to live. Rather than living, he was ultimately made to suffer. And suffer he has for thousands of years.


Man suffers enormously, from the greatest to the least.


We suffer anger, fear, ignorance, sorrow, pain, and loss.


Children suffer from horrible diseases and die slow sometimes painful deaths. The innocent are almost never spared.


What are the lessons learned from watching children die?  What are the children learning as their bodies are claimed by death?


White children in South Africa have been murdered and mutilated. Their parents have been made to watch them die.  These children spent the last moments of their lives in excruciating pain and fear.


White women throughout the world have been raped and murdered by darklings whose only motivation is that their victims are white.


Justice is nowhere to be found upon the face of the earth and whites are the most targeted race on the planet, despised and murdered like dogs almost everyday.


Our race is dying.


God is silent. As no justice issues forth from the throne of God. Man creates inner solstice through soothing religious ideas and doctrines. But that doesn't change the fact that God is silent.


So I must return:


God created man with the potential for failure.


God blamed man for that failure, sentencing him and his progeny to thousands of years of harsh punishment.


God is infinite. God is Good?


Man is responsible for the death of his own children, the rape of his own women, and the suffering of his race.


God is always blameless and benevolent? Why?

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Some years back, while sitting in a hospital room watching my little boy suffer an excruciating diagnosis, I began to hate God with a passion that I can scarcely express. The above dialogue had been swimming through my mind for a very long time before that day, I had just been unable to answer the questions in the way that God demanded they be answered. The pious would probably repspond to such an inquiry into truth by saying that these thoughts reveal a sin whose roots run deep inside of a man. They would say, "Who is man to question the will of God?" Life contains suffering, strife, and commotion unto death with some meaningful intervals in between. From the cradle to the grave this would appear to be the reality of our existence.  We almost have to pinch ourselves and ask, what's the sense of it all?  Our luminous interval of life, arising from a state of non-being, is beset with the problem of mortality and suffering. There isn't a soul that can deny it nor is there a soul that doesn't suffer some amount of pain in its sojourn through life.  I have been born with a mind that seeks after the mysteries of God, that is really my only problem in the eyes of most Christians today. I don't accept moral platitudes or "orthodox" religious doctrines in place of the truth. There is no substitute for truth. We will either answer the questions, or we will die like cowards who continue to believe that by simply being religious, moral, or harsh toward our enemies, that all of our problems will be solved. I have been all of these things, and they brought me no closer to God than when I was a sinner in bondage without Christ. Something has been missing within our folk for a very, very long time.

So how do we answer to the truth of this world, which is suffering and brutality-one toward another, generation after generation? Better yet, how do we answer for the source of this existence, which is none other than Almighty God?  How do we explain the seeming psycopathy that God has toward those he claims to love?  Would you kill your children or inflict them with disease?  Would you watch in icy detachment while your daughters were being raped by blacks? (that would be 150,000 of your daughters in the last five years alone, BTW).  Would you allow such torture to continue because your children wronged you?  Does the prodigal son deserve the fate of our kin in South Africa?  Did our kin deserve their fate when Atilla demanded white virgins as tribute? We now know that from these unholy unions the pollution of the white race was secured in small increments that exist even to this day.  What then is the idea that "God is Love" when truth has dictated that our entire history is one of unending tragedy and unrelenting suffering?  Was all this suffering for the sake of God's love?  And just what kind of love does God give us when it is mixed with such bitterness and treachery?

We look to the past and see our Christian ancestors as prototypes of strong men and dutiful Christian women living in Godly times. Yet we fail to see the shortcoming of those days as well.  We fail to remember that when Christianity was strong and the race purer, the Black Plague visited Europe and killed nearly 60% of whites on this planet.  Pious and religious men and women died horrible deaths, innocent children were not even spared. Piety saved none. White Europe was cursed for no known reason other than it being "God's will".  The goodness of man toward man, and man toward God has never thwarted the unfortunate and sometimes tragic events our race has had to face.   So what profit is it to bring back the old days when they were just as cursed as these modern times?  We have romanticized the past and made it into something that it never was. Nostalgia has been the death of us because we have sacrificed truth for the sake of a godly racial kingdom that never existed.  We exalt the past because the filth that fills our modern times is practically unbearable. We are a conquered race; and we are dying a speedy death and nobody cares enough to stop it.  So what else can men do but make the past a veritable kingdom of God upon the earth when it was really the same puddle of mud it is today but with different circumstances? 

Sadly, the men that were ultimately willing to answer the questions I am asking were were often burned at the stake, disembowled,  and their heads put on a pike as an example to all those that would go against "orthodox" authority.  Christian Europe of old has died, she will never come back to life and good riddance to her. We have made her the paradise of our minds, the apple of our eye, and she has anchored us to the past making it difficult to confront the darkness of the present. Just look at the mess she is in now, godless and docile, a deadly mixture to be sure. We should ask ourselves why, if these nations and empires were so Godly, did they eventually die the death? Where was God when the Turks took Constantinople or when the communist jews took Russia putting to death over 50 million whites? Does man's God deserve the slavish love and devotion he has received?  Or is man's millennial old God ready to be buried along with every other vice that has brought the race to the brink of extinction? 

We try to make sense of it all by saying that God is on our side and the myriad of tragedies we have suffered are a punishment we deserve, or simply a product of the fall of man.  Perhaps our race suffers from a spiritual disease. Maybe we have begun to enjoy our destruction with some strange masochistic ecstacy. After all, many women of our race thoroughly love to have black men as mates while flaunting it to the world. So again where was God when the sons and daughters of our race were being destroyed in every generation of recorded history?  Were was God when tens of millions of young men were cut down in their prime in civil wars and world wars fought for the benefit of our enemies?  How exactly do we explain the love of God through 5000 years of racial genocide by those that utterly despise us?  More importantly, how is it that those who do NOT have God on their side are so successful in this world at ridding the planet of Adamic men?  Just whose side is God on anyway? Perhaps it is time to simply give him up!  Perhaps it is time to say, "Father, you have failed us. You have lied to us. You have promised us the world and offered us only slow death and more suffering than any should have to bear. You have bred confusion, war, disease, and everlasting tragedy."  Now have I really gone too far? Or am I being honest?  

The idea that "it is for God to know" is meaningless. This is the most disingenuous an dishonest answer one can offer. The refusal to answer the question is a refusal to confront the truth.  This refusal has been a frequent final nail in the coffin of many Christians whose faith has been hanging by a thread, as it were. It is essentially born out of ignorance and the limitation of the human intellect to grasp the mysteries of God. Furthermore we deny ourselves an answer on these profound questions because once the answer is known to us, the implications are devastating. Once we know, we are never really the same. The so-called religious authority of the "orthodox" establishment is then abrogated in totality as God reveals himself in truth rather than through the filter of man's intellect and design.  The God I am referring to in this post is not the one true God, it is the many God's man has served throughout his life on this planet, all of which have been made to conform to the personal tastes of the individual human society, societies that have been corrupt to their core because they refuse a confrontation with truth.

Only when we are willing to reach out to the truth will we fully be freed from this mess, and only then will fierce, free, and fearless men be brought forth into this world.  Until then, dickless cowards will plague the earth with their pseudo-religious nonsense and "orthodoxy", which has been a pestilence unto man for all of his history killing the very best our race has had to offer. If we fail to reach the final conclusion I am alluding to in this post, you can bet your bottom dollar that the last white man on earth will be put in a zoo to be on display for the amusement of beasts.  That is the end of the white man on his present course.  Mark my words, the future is looking very bleak.

The faith of many is guided by fear, particularly man's fear of death and his eternal fate once his life has expired.  Man fears the lonliness of death and the prospect that there is nothing beyond this place but darkness.  In fact, man would endure endless torture if only he could live forever, or at least for a few minutes longer.  Not knowing what comes after we draw our final breath has caused all sorts of ideas to be born, ideas that are fed by the fear of eternal nothingness.  This fear is caused by ignorance alone.  There is much more to the story than most people are willing realize or even accept. Therefore I will attempt to answer the question that our Christian ancestors have continually failed to answer. Whether this post seals my place as a "Heretic" and my ontology as "unbiblical", that is for you to decide. I offer it because it is the only way to answer for the crisis that has been apparent in the West for an incredibly long time. The days of simple faith in God are over, and as much as it pains me to say it, they are a big part of the problem.  Such faith has spread the myth of "Judeo-Christianity" and the worship of the Jews.  We are no longer on sabbatical from our responsiblilities, we are lying on our death bed and living in a world that has forgotten the sacred and the source of life.

The collective body of God is suffering from a racial cancer.  We have devised all sorts of theologies and religious arguments as a way to turn our backs to our responsibility.  We fiddle while the world burns.  When we are called out on this, we deny it to the utmost. Let me be blunt, I don't think anyone gives a shit whether you are a 5 point calvanist or a 3 point calvanist.  How on God's green earth is this race going to survive when the best they have to offer are religious debates that are now nearing 2000 years old? You'd have more luck settling the matter with a fist fight than with these words. Those who continue to engage in these religious debates while doing nothing for the race are all a bunch of god damn idiots.  So now what?  Shall we continue this circle jerk for another 2000 years? My God, there isn't enough time!

I wrote my bill of divorcement to CI years ago because it is nothing more than a brood of vipers and rabbis. The pinnacle of their faith is scholarly, it possesses nothing of the Spirit of God, which is to say, TRUTH.  They are all doomed, from the dumbest goat fucker to the prima donna, pressed shirt wearing elitists hiding in the shadows (you know who you are).  There is no hope in any of them because aside from participation in the many religious debates, they have nothing to offer the race. Once their words dry up, they wouldn't so much as give you a piece of pizza if your life depended on it. That's because aside from wanting people to follow them and people they can rule over,they have nothing of substance to give.  The real problem, however, goes much deeper than all of these things that are just on the surface.  The problem is in creation itself, and the fact that it is following a predestined path.  It's not a problem really, people are just not aware of how it all works, and the pattern through which God operates in this world.  Therefore they adopt an elementary view of God that is not only childish, but also expresses their present spiritual state, which is spiritual babyhood.  When God is actually uncovered, one can barely believe what they have found.

As complex as this world appears, it is really very simple. The truth is everywhere and God is omnipresent. The hiding places of God are like that of a 2 year old who hides standing behind a closet door believing he will not be found. God is in the last place you supsect him because it is the most obvious place of all.  D.E. Harding in his book, "The Hierarchy Of Heaven And Earth" (with preface by C.S. Lewis) figured out just a tiny piece of this truth, but neglected the rest of it entirely.  To this day many people knock, but the door isn't opened because they aren't ready for what's behind the door (the funny thing is that they already know what's waiting behind the door, in fact, they have spent their entire lives running from the answer).  Can you guess why?

The best way I can explain it is that:

Man suffers only insofar as his ignorance of the truth dictates his false view of himself and the universe. He suffers his fate only because he believes foolheartedly in the idea that he is autonomous from God.  In this belief he sacrifices all authority that has been entrusted to him.  All life that is separated from God (which can happen in appearance only, not in reality) undergoes death and suffering.  Truth dictates that all life is meaningless when it is separated from God and only when man sees himself in totality will the tide of suffering and bitterness be reversed.

God is absolutely present, even in the most tragic moments of life. Man is just too frightenened to open his eyes and look. We have remained static only because we have chosen to not be honest with ourselves.  This lack of honesty has come about through fear in admitting that man is more than an expression of God, not a separate independent entity who has a choice to follow or deny God.  There is no choice, you have already been determined, and that is why there is no "YOU" there is only "God". Once this truth is reconciled, the ultimate meaning and purpose of Christ presents itself in all of its glory.  The only catch, however, is that everything you once were and everything you thought you were must utterly die in the void that exists where you thought God had been absent.  Just the thought of this is difficult for a great deal of people because they have a name and form, a set of beliefs, etc.  The truth would ultimately elevate them to a level they do not want to go because they are frightened of what it implies-Authority in a way that none have ever realized.  Desperately they cling to these false ideas because through these things they retain their selfishness (and fearfulness) not fully allowing Christ to live within them. 

God took human nature upon himself not only to suffer, die and ressurect unto eternal life.  He also left us the path that leads toward life. We are to be imitators of Christ, who are resurrected and rule with him for all eternity.  For years we have not only squandered that authority, but we have believed we are free men apart from God.  We have failed to make the link between free-will, God's will, and fate.  If you haven't figured it out yet, they are all the same thing.  Rather than being fearless (because there is no true separation between the Adamic man and God), we have bemoaned our place in the world and begged for forgiveness while uttering such nonsense as "we are deserving only of death."  What did we expect would happen?  We got exactly what we asked for because our will is one and the same with the will of God. Christ came to earth to redeem man and to make him into something greater than he ever was before.  For far too long we have been swimming against the tide not understanding what the "fullness of the gospel" ultimately means.  Our level of suffering depends on how much we cherish the idea of autonomy from God.  The amount of selfishness in our life reveals this level of autonomy, which is mans greatest yet unacknowledged sin. 

Life, which includes all of our experiences, thoughts, deeds, and events has been absolutely and utterly deteremined by God.  Our free-will is bound entirely to God's will.  The two are inseparable because they are the same.  If you think that you control a thought that enters into your mind, you're a fool.  If you think that you can determine what happens to you tomorrow, you're an even bigger fool.  And if you think for even a fraction of a moment, that you possess free-will, you have been painfully deceived.  Even your reaction to my words has been determined for you. This life, which you call your own, doesn't belong to you at all.  Your belief that your life belongs to you is the cause of all strife and suffering in the world.  You do not, under your own power,  have the ability to fight your way out of a wet paper bag.  God permits the illusion of man's free-will and autonomy only because the universe abides in its present form because of it. This present form has its purpose in the unfolding of God's divine plan, but the end of the old ways is quickly approaching.  

Existence is pure fatalism and it is inescapable.  We can pray all we like, but nothing averts the will of God, which not only upholds life, but fully determines every event of our lives from the moment we are born into this den of vice and sin, to the moment we exit it. In the moments we think we are free, we are held in absolute bondage to the will of God, whether we are sinners or saints. Those who disagree will call this "defeatism", but they haven't really thought the matter through.  They still believe in a false idea of freedom, but fail to understand that true freedom, ferocity, and fearlessness only comes alive in a being that has seen through the lie of human autonomy from God.  There is no such thing as freedom apart from God.  Man has to rethink every aspect of what he is and what he believes. More importantly he must enter into brutal self-analysis and self-exploration if he hopes to escape the present order of things.

Nothing that happens in this darkened world is unnatural or uncalled for. Not even the Son of God was spared suffering when he took human nature upon himself. The author, who is none other than Almighty God, has written the book from before the foundation of the world.  The moment you think you possess any autonomy from the fullness of the Godhead, you are already lost. All authority of Adamic man lies in the reality that there is no separation between his essence and God's.  That was the answer to the question that nobody dared to ask. "Why?"  As shocking as it may sound, it was this idea of human autonomy and separation from God that gave birth to the fallen world and man's incorrect perception of what he is. Racial miscegenation is but an outward sign of something far more profound that took place in the Spirit of God. Christ came to this pig pen (http://www.divinepageant.com/) to once again raise Adamic man to his place of Godly authority.   The life of Christ, which lives in us designated a change or emanation in the mind of God toward a final end in his divine plan-the immortality of his creation through a brutal trial by fire.  God ordained the very moment of the fall.  When man separated, so too did his shadow (and the race of the shadow) appear to him beguiling him to enter further into the lie of autonomy. The shadow has no part in the light, and only exists apart from the light as a precipitate, a reaction to the outward expression and fullness of God into a divided state.  And from that mixture of the Light and the Shadow have many strange beings been brought forth, not only dark and criminal, but possessing in their centermost point a void that has no bounds.  As long as there is the shadow (and the shadow is the essence of all vessels of wrath) there is man who believes in the lie of his autonomy.  If you understand any of this, you have come a very, very long way.  

All of human life is a trial, a sifting out of the good from the bad, the pure from the corrupt, the wheat from the chaff.  In the end, it won't be the one that sticks to doctrine that inherits eternal life, but rather that one has loved Christ and has come to see the idea of autonomy as a deception.  This lie of autonomy has breed every ungodly doctrine, every religous battle between brothers, and every limitation in the Christian faith. Ordained? Yes, but there is a limit to that autonomy and its present purpose.  When the maximum limit of that autonomy has been reached, and man has so thoroughly bought into the idea that he and his life is separate from the Godhead, all of human existence, the very universe itself, will enter into a coflagration and then into judgement.  When the truth is revealed, the identity of man will also be revealed because Man will have taken part in the divine nature of Christ who is the "Personhood" of God and the means by which we come to a knowledge of the mysteries of God.

I resign myself to the will of God in everything. Christ is my God and the center of my life. All authority upon heaven and earth has been given to him (Matthew 28:18).  As I mentioned earlier, Christ is the "personhood" of God and the final revelation of God to Man.  In his life was revealed the truth of this world, which is marked upon all creation.  There is the phase of birth, life, death, and resurrection.  That is the completion not only of his life, but of all of creation.  It may not appear as such, but the present order of things is dying, and if one cannot see that, it is solely because they have become autonomous in their perception of life and are immersed in a mirage.  After death and judgement comes the resurrection, and in the resurrection do we stand to inherit eternal life in the Kingdom of God, which is none other than the revelation of what man is. But before that happens, we must come to the same painful realization that Christ came to upon the cross when he took human nature upon himself.

Of Divine Origins

"Every inquiry concerning the gods explores the old notions and fables, while the ancients concealed their natural ideas, which they preserved in these events in parables, and always mixed their inquires with the fables." - Strabo 30 B.C.

In a previous post, called "Serpent Culture" I expressed the idea that Genesis is based upon a very old fable that was expressing the corruption of God's creation through racial miscegenation.  For at least a hundred years, archeologists have been uncovering the remains of ape-like beings (not to mention dwarf humanoids, etc.) who lived ages ago.  We seem to view these odd beings as an anomaly that is hardly worth mentioning. Yet we should know that these beings were so incredibly diverse, that one could scarcely imagine how odd the ancient world would appear to us moderns. Probably something very close to a fairy tale.  These beings walked the earth for a very long time, hundred of thousands of years for certain.  During that time, I firmly believe that Adamic man also walked the earth.  If he didn't, the natural hierarchy of creation did not exist. We should know that is an impossibility. As long as the world abides, there is always a representative of God upon it.  We also cannot deny that many strange artifacts have been found (metal tools, human footprints etc.) dating back to long before man was thought to have walked the earth.  Therefore I argue for an ancient Adamic man, a man that God's spirit had been breathed into hundreds of thousands of years ago. This being, more than likely, existed at the very same time as the apelings. This being was "Adam" and is the father of today's white men and women. His beginnings are so remote in time that they could only be expressed in fable, his secrets guarded by Cherubim with flaming swords placed there by none other than the ineffable God himself. Because we remain under the curse of the fall in our corrupt physical natures, we cannot yet know the entirety of the story, but I assume that one day we will.

The Adamic man once had absolute supremacy over every other creature that walked or slithered upon the earth. He had supremacy over the apeman and supremacy over the many myriads of ape-like beings that also lived at one time in this remote past.  There has always been a strict hierarchy in this world, only now, in the most abnormal time in history, has this hierarchy been undermined almost entirely by the currents of dissolution that are now seeking to destroy the last vestiges of order in our fallen word.  What I am going to offer in this post is a theory. I strongly suspect that it is true. I assure you that many will probably find the idea untrue and some may even find it revolting.

Our race has a history that even racially aware Christans don't fully understand or appreciate.  This history reveals that Adamic men were at one point so utterly divine that the first three chapters of the book of Genesis do him little justice.  In a word, this history has been entirely hidden because we are still living under the curse of the fall. For the last 2000 years the genetics of the Aryan white man have been under attack through various invasions by the likes of Atilla the Hun and Genghis Kahn.  Today a large majority of whites have an infusion of asiatic and african blood, this can no longer be denied.  The amounts of racial miscegenation among even those that look white are amazing.  Recently I watched a documentary about racial migrations up to the modern day. The premise of the documentary was to show that there was a diverse genetic history to those living in England.  Several Englishmen and Englishwomen did genetic testing only to find that up to 20% of their genetic makeup was Asiatic and Sub-saharan African. The appearance of the English that were most closely related to the African and Asiatic were those that had the darkest hair and eyes. There were very few 100% European types to be found, but they clearly do exist and several were found in the documentary.  In a word the Adamic man has been under a vicious attack for thousands of years, due mainly to the hatred that exists for them among the darker african and asiatic "races" as well as their countless mixtures and variations.  These dark races, who symbolize death and unconsciousness are a violent bunch and have been raping and pillaging adamic whites for millennia. Their main goal has been to breed them out of existence. This cannot be denied; Europe had been defending themselves from this onslaught for thousands of years continuing through today with the Muslim menace that now infects that continent. It is in these darker races and their genetics that their violence and criminal nature is revealed.  We owe our greatest debt of gratitude to Charles Martel that the white man even exists today.  From what we know of his appearance, and that of his Grandson Charlemagne, he was an Adamite of pure descent and without guile. He has been described as having a thick neck, of large stature, red hair and blue eyes.  His personality described as cheerful. 

Why the mystery?  We should know by now (since we are moving so much closer to the consummation of this world age) that the single factor of violence, disease, economic crisis, etc. is related to race and the corruption thereof. The world is falling apart now because the divine authority that exists in the Adamic man is passing from the earth.  More importantly, the ongoing racial war that has now become more covert in our modern age, is something we are losing because genetically we are surrounded by those that are half-man and half-beast, or 20% bestial and 80% man.  Conveniently we take a strange stance on the whole affair-and extend to these criminals the grace of God even though God never deemed these bastards good in his original schema of creation.

If there is anything that is causing the death of Adamic man, it is his unwillingness to be stoic in the face of ape agression in this world.  I can't count how many times I have seen the white parents of murder and rape victims offer forgiveness to the criminal that cut the lives of their precious children short.  We don't need a church revival or brotherhood of man. We need good old fashioned lynch mobs!

Eventualy, white men and women will have to answer to the Creator for their myriads of sins, which include cowardice and the love of comfort.

Moving on I believe that Genesis Chapter 6 comes from a very ancient tradition.  A tradition that was already ancient when the book of Genesis was compiled.  In it we read:

And it came to pass, when men began to multiply on the face of the earth, and daughters were born unto them,

That the sons of God saw the daughters of men that they were fair; and they took them wives of all which they chose.

And the LORD said, "My spirit shall not always strive with man, for that he also is flesh: yet his days shall be an hundred and twenty years."

There were giants in the earth in those days; and also after that, when the sons of God came in unto the daughters of men, and they bare children to them, the same became mighty men which were of old, men of renown.

And God saw that the wickedness of man was great in the earth, and that every imagination of the thoughts of his heart was only evil continually.

Genesis 6:1-5

Just who were these "Sons of God" being referred to in Genesis?  Many Christians interpret this to be the fallen angels, of which Satan was the head.  However, once one begins to understand that "Satan" is not a literal being, but rather a poor translation of the term "Adversary" it becomes clear that the Sons of God, who are described as "Men of Renown" and "Mighty" are not mongrels, but some sort of divine being.  Genesis 6 has made use of an old tradition that more than likely detailed the descent of Adamic man from his paradisical and divine state, mixing with beings that are more earthly and animalistic.  We have to keep in mind that Genesis was written after the fall of Adam, and was composed of more than one creation narrative from at least two different sources combined into a cohesive whole at a later date.  Genesis 6 is an attempt to explain a very old tradition detailing the mongrelization of Adamic man.  This strange tradition of fallen divine beings seems common to many other religious traditions before the time of Christ. It is clear these traditions are detailing Adam's fall from Grace in a strange veiled form.

In the book of Enoch, which is even mentioned in the New Testament book of Jude, we read the following about the strange baby born to a mortal mother:

106.1 And after those days my son Methuselah chose a wife for his son Lamech and she became pregnant by him and bore a son.

106.2 And his body was white like snow, and red like the flower of a rose, and the hair of his head was white like wool. And his eyes were beautiful and when he opened his eyes he made the whole house bright, like the Sun, so that the whole house was exceptionally bright.

106.3 And when he was taken from the hand of the midwife he opened his mouth and spoke to the Lord of Righteousness.

106.4 And his father Lamech was afraid of him, and fled, and went to his father Methuselah.

106.5 And he said to him: "I have begotten a strange son; he is not like a man but is like the children of the Angels of Heaven, of a different type and not like us. And his eyes are like the rays of the Sun and his face glorious.

106.6 And it seems to me that he is not sprung from me but from the Angels and I am afraid that something extraordinary may be done on the earth in his days.

We must ask ourselves why is white skin, bright (blue) eyes, and light hair considered so divine?  Are we to believe that Angels came down from heaven and were miraculously able to have children with mortal women? We can clearly see that these "mongrel" children are described as being "white" and having "blue eyes."   These stories are clearly the retelling of an ancient tradition that is relating a race of people who were considered divine that slowly mongrelized with beings of a lesser order. And if they were racial bastards, as some assert, why would the scripture refer to them in such greatness by calling them, "men of renown?"  We see that even among the darker races in their conceptions of the Gods they are the idealized form of Aryan man. We find in many cases, as in the case of Quetzalcoatl (the white father) that almost all the Gods in the ancient world appeared scandanavian in appearance and divine like the mythological Annunaki of the Sumerians. 

The sin of racial adulteration was not fully realized when the book of Genesis was compiled.  It is written about in fable only because the fallen Adamites were literally cut off from the divine and from the past.  All that remained were fragmentary stories, which had already been confused by the time of Moses.  Were these mysteries known in full by Adamic men, there wouldn't be so much confusion on the issue. But there is enormous confusion, and because of that misunderstanding, we know that something has been kept from us.  We have set up the OT as a paper God without understanding that there is not one white civilization in all of history that did not use parable and fable to express deeper truths, which remained hidden from common view. It's not that the books are corrupted, it is that man's understanding of myth has been lost and he has followed the literalist error. Even if myth and spiritual allegory are used (and they clearly are), this does not negate the authority of the OT. There has always been a profane wisdom, and then a wisdom granted only those who had been initiated.  So for most Christians today, this idea that Adamic man is perhaps hundreds of thousands of years old is unacceptable even though we fully realize that whites go back to at least 25000 years ago and come from an entirely different source than the primitive apelings that walked the earth long, long ago.

So what's the physical proof of any of this?   Well I think that there is one proof we cannot rule out.  Mainly that RH negative blood types seem to represent the legendary racial family of Adamites. Their are very few people in the world today that have RH negative blood types.  They are found mostly among whites.  Positive blood types reveal that a person has the Rhesus protein in their blood, which is common to monkeys and other animals. In people with RH negative blood types, that protein is entirely absent revealing that there are more than likely 2 different points of origination between man and man-like beings that once walked the earth.  However, by a strange coincidence the darker races can also possess RH negative blood types, but only because they have Adamite genetics that have allowed this.  It is very rare that darker races possess RH negative blood types. Among the asiatics alone 99% of them have either a+,b+, AB+, or O+ blood types, the negative blood types are almost entirely absent in them.  We simply cannot deny it, the genetics of a man will decide what he is.  These are inherent in every cell of our body and we cannot escape what we are.   

If a woman has an RH negative blood type and her mate has a RH positive blood type, the woman's body will create antibodies in an attempt to destroy the unborn baby.  It is pretty much an immune response.  The RH negative woman's body views her child as a foreign invader.  This is why women today who have a negative blood type will be given a Rhogham shot to protect her child from Rhesus disease. In my own family there is a high rate of RH negative blood as well as blonde hair and blue eyes. In seeing pictures of my children, particularly my son, his eyes are so bright that we could scarcely take him out into public without strangers coming up to us and saying they had never seen such a beautiful child before whose eyes are so bright. People were often stunned upon seeing him and one lady in an elevator had said, "he looks like a baby angel."  Even among the darker races they view beauty as that of the Aryan ideal, blonde hair, blue-eyes, and light skin.  They love it so much in fact, that they detest the very fact of what they are-mainly that they are unable to partake of the divine beauty that is inherent in the pinnacle of God's creation, Adamkind.     

Stagnant Church, Stagnant Race

We have an  exceptionally narrow view of God these days.  It is so narrow, in fact, that Christianity itself has grown stagnant and many are grasping for the truth and not finding it in the faith.  We have an even narrower view of how we ought to express that faith in a world that is clearly out of control.  The Pharisee would have you believe that God is impotent, that his only mode of communicating with you is through scripture.   My last sentence will make the CI pharisees cringe and proclaim "You See! He doesn't accept the scripture. He is negating the word of God!"  Of course that is the furthest from the truth and only reveals the moronic Christian pharisee for the fool that he is.  

The reason CI and all of modern Christianity has failed is because we have put a limit upon our understanding of God. Whenever we veer closer to the truth some Pharisee yells, "HERESY!" and expects us to cower in fear.  We have grown to believe that scripture is the only way God communicates with his sons and daughters.  And quite simply, that is not the case.  The faith of the modern church (and the individual Christian) has its basis in the interpretation of scripture as the sole authority of truth and the near absolute negation of the living Word in man.  Yet we forget that Christ did not come to establish a religion similar to what was in the Old Testament ruled by laws and moral platitudes, he came to establish the path leading toward eternal life. The Christians of the first century clearly understood this.  They willingly gave up their very lives for the inheritance of New Jerusalem because Christ was alive and flourishing within them and particularly in the conscience of the Christian Man and Woman.  One part of the faith that we have conveniently forgotten is that we are to be imitators of Christ working out our salvation with fear and trembling-that is the beginning of wisdom.  Yet there are far more slavish Christians, than those whose faith is about the imitation of Christ. Instead we attempt to match cunning with cunning by way of scripture and make accusations, "You're wrong" and "You have taken that passage out of context" or quite simply, "You're a heretic and you will burn in hell."  This is not what Christ had intended.  The Church was established to spread the gospel to the world, to make believers out of Adamic men.  It did not come to establish a Church "building" where everybody goes for "a service" or to participate in the cult of personality.  We have erred so greatly that we are approaching the end of the line.  God's patience is running out on his own people.

We are a dying race because collectively we possess only one piece of the total Christian life.  The other piece we have shut out because the Pastors and Priests, who are either pimping God or seeking out slaves, have told men that they can be no more intelligent or go any further into the Deity of Christ than the Shepherd of the flock. This makes the church grow stagnant. We spend a lot of time arguing amongs ourselves and attempting to make subjects rather than Christian brothers and sisters.   The modern church is an impotent establishment entirely unable to serve the needs of Adamic man because it has veered dangerously to the left. CI is no exception to that rule. It follows after the same archetype of the fallen church.  Walk in the doors of many churches in America today and you will find Sunday Christians whose race is meaningless to them. Yet ask them why God has made the races different and they can give no solid answer.  We can no longer ask why we are dying, by now it should be obvious.  When the spiritual pinciple that upholds us is undermined, we can expect nothing less than a slow death from the inside out.  The mental state of modern man only proves this point. Man's spiritual sickness is widespread, he suffers depression, bi-polar disorder, etc. etc.  There is no physical source to these conditions, they have their root in the conscience that does not possess Christ. We cannot take a pill and expect that our problems will vanish. When death comes, God will be waiting, and what we have refused to confront in life will follow us into death.  Of that there is no question.

We have to be honest with ourselves.  Scripture gives us no clear answers on the racial question.  It is clearly discussed and its promises to the sons and daughters of Adam are clear, but it is not the centerpiece of the faith that so many have made it into. The New Testament gives us no clear answer on when the use of force against our enemies is justified. Many have struggled for years for that answer. The interpretations of scripture are so many that nobody truly knows who possesses the final word of the matter. In regard to eschatology, there are so many interpretations that no two men think alike either. We have dispensationalists, preterists, amillennialists, etc. Scripturally we cannot prove either one as absolutely right or wrong.  In regrd to the Law there are those that still push OT laws as necessary. Scripturally we cannot prove that premise wrong, and neither can they prove the premise wrong that the law has been abolished. The scriptures are essentially interpreted through the filter of human personality. The scriptures are incredibly dynamic and if it were easy to find the truth in scripture, we would not have such groups as Jehovas witnesses, Mormons, The Emergent Church, or Roman Catholics.  But these people exist and we cannot say that it is because they are evil and don't understand the scripture. 

There are many Mennonites and Mormons who clearly understand (without saying it) that a racially homogenous community is Godly in every way.  Quite frankly many of us disagree with their theology, but it would appear that some possess the truth in different areas of their faith.  That is really the truth of scripture; that the fullness of the Christian faith is not defined solely by the scriptures, but by the total faith which includes the human conscience which houses the Living Word.  If I may say so, most Christians today possess less than half of the truth, the other half they refuse to listen to because they don't like the implication, mainly that there is more to Christ than reading and studying the bible and following after some fool that proclaims his intellectual superiority over all. 

I strongly dislike the man that thinks he possesses the truth of the scripture or studies the scripture while sacrificing his inner life.  This man is quick to criticize, quick to get angry, and quick to shout "heretic" everytime somebody doesn't share his "orthodox" view.  Secondly I despise priestcraft and the thought that a man must have a priest as his mediator between himself and God.  This idea is unscriptural and common to those who know neither the scriptures nor the inner life where the Word truly dwells.

I am now left to ask the question. Where are all the prophets? When we think of the word Prophet, all we can think about are the Prophets of the OT. It is unthinkable to many  that Prophets could exist in our modern times. The measure of a Christian today is that he is knowledgeable in the scripture and gives forth a teaching.  That is not Christianity as it was intended.  I am thoroughly convinced that if a Prophet of the faith came into this world he would scarecely be recognized let alone understood by the masses that subscribe to a Christian faith that is lacking in the most profound places. Who needs scholars and academics, give us Prophets! The common faith of Christians today is not only depressing, but it is full of scholars and academics whose outward expression of the faith only reveals their lack of inner fortitude. How about another history lesson, Brother? Another exegesis on the book of Obadiah?  Little do we understand how much God despises the lukewarm scholarly Christian whose very life is a testament to the spiritual catastrophe taking place within him. God clearly prefers the prophets and the zealots over the spiritual weakling and bastard sons who walk the earth without a care in the world.  Sadly, the more outward the faith (toward phariseeism and priestcraft) the more the inner life is sacrificed.  Ask yourself what have these men done for the faith?  Have they answered the profound questions that plague the Christian who is seeking real communion with God?  I think not.  They have put God into a box and said, "You stay here. We cannot have you roaming the earth."  What these men fear over everything is the loss of control over things, the totality of their faith is about their authority and retaining it in the midst of their error.

Without fail, the Christian right (both the racially aware and not) seek to bring back the old days. This is probably the most outrageous error I have ever seen.  Everyday we are moving closer toward the truth, should we just simply "turn around" and go to where our home used to be?  I answer a resounding NO because our home is incorruptible and it exists not here and now, but in the future and we must take everything that comes exactly for what it is.  God is sovereign and we need to stand up like men and face the darkness that is in this world. There is no other way. Going back to yesterday and the way things were is a sin.  We stand to inherit New Jerusalem and dine at God's table, shall we then go back to our vomit?  So what then is the inner life that Christ grants to those that seek him out with a full heart?  It is the fullness of the Gospel, which is Christ in you.  It is the living word alive and absolutely present in the conscience of the man.  It brings to life the new man, not the religous bigot and pharisee that must give orders in order to feel close to God.  It brings forth a man whose feet are firmly grounded upon the earth, and whose head is in the heavens.  Most importantly it brings forth free men who are not in conflict with themselves and whose lives are a perfect synthesis between the inward faith and the outward. So, yes, where are the prophets!?!

Our race is in a state of catastrophe because our spiritual grounding has been lost.  We are passing from the earth only because we have refused to listen to the conscience.  Instead we have loved our comfort, and we have loved our easy answers.  We have not been honest.  The Body of Christ has been abused by men who made the "Church" into a jewish synagogue attempting to satisfy our yearning for God with rules and regulations. Rather than using force and violence when our conscience has justified it, we have simply turned away.  When young women have been murdered and raped by beasts of the field, their fathers have offered the beasts forgiveness in the name of Christian love.  How pathetic.  Is it any wonder we are dying the death?  The Christian man of old was a terrible presence for the darklings to behold because he boldly walked the earth, a King shining among beasts.  Wherever he went the mountains shook because he bore Christ in his heart and mind.  Today the Christian man is a spiritual weakling who lives in bondage to his man-centered ethics rather than his conscience.  We are dying because Christ is not a living presence in so many Christians.  It is that living presence that gives the sons and daughters of Adam the authority as ambassadors of God upon the earth. We are losing the battle, and until mens hearts turn, we will only sink further into the darkness that is claiming this world.

Refusing To Listen, See, And Understand

Oh, who will give me a voice that I may cry aloud to the whole world

that God, the all highest,

is in the deepest abyss within us

and is waiting for us to return to him.

Oh, my God, how does it happen in this poor old world,

that You are so great and yet nobody finds You,

that You call so loudly and nobody hears You,

that You are so near and nobody feels You,

that You give Yourself to everybody and nobody knows Your name!

Men flee from You and say they cannot find You;

they turn their backs and say they cannot see You;

they stop their ears and say they cannot hear You!

-Hans Denck